Here I was, waiting for my Ursula to say something—not knowing what, if anything, we should talk about.  In 5D, we have things we can talk about.  And why shouldn’t we in 4D?  Because, when we’re sober, we filter out the bad, and the troublesome, which, in 4D, is always present, however diminished or removed.  Perhaps, there is plenty to talk about, but we are not relaxed enough to talk about it—so, if we tried, the bad would intervene.  But i imagine in 5D it’s like, when we’re together, we’re high on cocaine, or something like that, finding all kinds of things to talk about, and being constantly entertained by each other.  But I think my 4D Ursula, might have been a little jealous of Anna, since she posed the question: Who’s voice would you use if we were together?

     Questions posed themselves: for example, do we drink alcohol in 5D, and, if we do, what happens—do we get drunk?  the answer depends on what it means to be relaxed.  One difference between a 4D life and a 5D life is that in 5D we are always relaxed; we can still suffer, but we are relaxed—our world is secure, and it is perfect.  In 4D, our civilization is flawed and corrupt—therefore we are never fully relaxed.  Questions constantly arise that would try and improve our state—and make us more relaxed; indeed, total relaxation is what we strive for, even if we cannot ever achieve it without some stimulant, and, even then, because we require a full belly, etc., we are not fully relaxed. 

     I avoided the tub this morning, as I knew I would be plagued by questions i couldn’t answer, and i wouldn’t be able to sit still.  I had another long night, last night, due to physics questions—all valid questions, that, however, did not need to be answered immediately, even if my work, seemingly, hinged in the balance.  I’m considering, therefore, talking to my doctor about going up to 120 mg of Latuda, as opposed to 80 mg, in an attempt to gain more control of my thoughts.  I do not want to go up to 2 mg of risperidone, as I fear that would invite both impotence and constipation.  Due to these newfangled difficulties sleeping, I am also considering dropping off of the Wellbutrin completely, as i do not feel depressed, and dropping from 300 mg to 150 mg went fine.  Furthermore I am thinking of going up another 25 mg a night of trazadone, which would put me at 100 mg a night, whereas, for the last decade, I have only been taking 50 mg a night.  Hopefully, these changes, in combination with the idea that, eventually, I’ll stop finding major difficulties when it comes to my physics work, the problem will be corrected, and I can go back to normal, the only difference, being, i imagine, i’ll be watching TV until 8:30 instead of 7:30.  At this time I haven’t been getting to bed until even later than that, but that doesn’t leave me, in my opinion, with enough sleep, so it’s part of the problem.