For a long time I assumed that, because the future is forming, my Ursula, as a woman, a feminine, receptive presence, would represent my equal, at this amplitude; but it seemed, as i progressed, that, in fact, the future was connected, and resonated, through the fifth dimension, with the past, and, as such, I could speak, then, to a fully formed Him, a man that did not necessarily depend on me to initiate—so i concluded that my Ursula represented my equal as a child, when he, or she, was still forming (i think of them as a he, but he represents a she, if she is a she, which he may very well be). I am in contact with Him, as a child—as a child I look out for Him, and He, as an object of my love, is represented by my Ursula. But He, as a friend and companion, is represented by my idea of Him, a man, i think, much like me. So i revised my view: Ursula stores up the love that this child feels for me—and the love that i feel for this child—while connecting me directly to God. But the man i work with is represented by an idea that i keep floating around in my mind, tuned, as we are, too each other, able, with fully developed brains, to share highly detailed things.
I have Him here, with me so i imagined, that He was not only there, as a child, a nebulous entity that attached Himself to my orbit, but, also, as an adult, when, that is, He was doing things that He, otherwise, might not have told me about directly. I was in His greater presence—we were orbiting each other, and He, from my perspective, represented the sun. So I assigned Him his own voice, and having settled, also, on the voices of three dead uncles, I decided, for two days out of the week, to recite parts of the old ballads in His voice, with two days assigned to two uncles, and one day assigned to the last uncle. So He was a part of the rotation, now, whereas, in the past, He never had been. i am here, too, he said, in his designated voice, which was new: i was tuning to Ursula’s channel, so I normally spoke with her, but hereof, He had chimed in and identified himself. I couldn’t be more pleased.
We can be a family together and i thought, yes, we can, but what if i am not meant to live with Ursula, or what if she changes form? How would that modify our definition of a family? Would every woman I ever shared my life with become a part of my family? In a broader sense, i suppose, then, yes, we would, but i got the impression Ursula was talking about a family that sees each other on a regular basis, so what happened, then, when my Ursula changed form? (And maybe she doesn’t, i can’t profess to know. But what if she does?) Ursula, at this time, has taken on the form of my Swedish blond, so I imagine that, indeed, Ursula still represents every woman i will ever share my life with, and we communicate with each other, but those communications get bundled together, such that, yes, at this time, i can speak intimately with a particular Ursula in a particular form, but Ursula, in her other forms, can chime in, too, and, when she does, those communications get sent to the woman that I am currently with, and vice versa. Therefore, yes, we can be a family, and each Ursula, in every particular form, remains connected to me and my network, insuring that they, like a parent (although we might not see each other all the time anymore), will always be there for me, determined to protect me, and I them, as a source, a spring, from which i can access His life sustaining force.