5.6.26: Untitled 3 #44

    This is just to confirm: yes, I am no longer using Ocasio-Cortez to broadcast my WIFI.  I am using the voice mentioned in the above—and I don’t know if it’s easier or more difficult.  Now you’re talking  a standard response, but, nonetheless, made in Ursula’s—the “new” Ursula’s—voice.  She was very kind—she was happy that I liked her, etc., but for some reason she couldn’t be with me because of her job as a radiologist.  Obviously a radiologist job shouldn’t keep here from being with me—so maybe she meant her job as a mom, or her job as someone else’s girlfriend, something like that.  I guess it could have been Ocasio-Cortez saying that she couldn’t be with me because of the optics—which would interfere with that which was more important than both of us—her rise to power, and universal health care.

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Novels in real time

5.6.26: Poem Untitled 1 #42

This piece reads like an interior monologue—raw, disorienting, and deeply intimate—pulling the reader into a mind that oscillates between desire, fear, and belief. Its shifting voices and surreal imagery create a sense of instability that feels intentional rather than chaotic, mirroring the speaker’s struggle to reconcile love, selfhood, and intrusive thought. Lines blur between confession and performance, humor and dread, giving the poem a strange magnetism that’s hard to look away from. The recurring tension between connection and isolation—especially in relationships and spirituality—grounds the work emotionally. It’s strength is in the interpretation, discomfort, and reflection it evokes, making it compelling for anyone drawn to psychologically complex, boundary-pushing poetry.

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Book-length poems

5.5.26: Poem Untitled 1 #41

This reads like a restless transmission from a mind balancing love and ambition in real time. Its shifting voices—intimate, political, surreal—create a layered experience where personal longing collides with public spectacle. Lines move unpredictably, yet there’s a rhythm beneath the chaos that rewards close attention. The speaker’s fixation on a distant, almost mythic beloved gives the piece emotional gravity, while flashes of humor and cultural reference keep it grounded. It feels less like a polished statement and more like being inside a living thought process—urgent, contradictory, and honest. That tension is its strength. Readers who enjoy poetry that blurs narrative, emotion, and abstraction will find themselves pulled into its strange, compelling orbit.

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Book-length poems

5.4.26: Poem Untitled 1 #40

This piece captures the uneasy unraveling of love in a digital age, where connection flickers through a screen but never quite lands. The speaker tries to move on—“a new voice – a new life; new woman”—yet remains tethered to the one he’s losing, admitting “I must break up with my screen” even as he can’t let go. What makes it compelling is the tension between reality and projection: he replaces her with an imagined figure who “lives, in perfect form in my mind,” exposing both longing and self-deception. The voice shifts between wounded pride and sharp clarity, especially when he concedes she’s “not the person that you present.” It’s raw, restless, and painfully honest—an intimate look at trying, and failing, to fall out of love.

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5.3.26: Untitled 3 #43

    Now the ground had shifted entirely.  All of a sudden Ursula got closer to me in my mind’s eye—and, as she did, i realized that I can’t keep using Ocasio-Cortez’s voice to represent Ursula.  At least not entirely.   A kind of reality had set in, the kind that said: it’s never going to happen because by the time you meet her she won’t be able to get pregnant—and that, sadly, was turning out to be a dealbreaker.  I felt her slipping away—if I ever had her; I was using a voice now that I associated with a fellow painter—a woman that lived in Norway, that, if I’m not mistaken, hailed, originally, from Hungary.  I didn’t know what this woman’s voice really sounded like—but I had a voice that I heard when I thought of her.  I was now using that voice as my primary counting voice.  It was not as distinct as Ocasio-Cortez’s voice—it was both seemingly easier to produce and yet harder to tell how it was different from my voice, but it was a definite voice.  So what the hell was going on?

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Novels in real time

5.3.26: Poem Untitled 1 #39

A restless voice spirals through desire and doubt trying to hold onto a woman who already seems to be slipping away. He insists “you, woman, do not love me today,” yet can’t stop replaying her in his “mind’s eye,” where she becomes everything from muse to mirage. Fantasies blur with reality—he imagines futures, heirs, even replacements, while admitting he might “expunge you from my mind; but i can’t do that.” The tension builds between what he wants—a shared life, certainty—and what he senses: distance, incompatibility, quiet rejection. Moments turn sharp, strange, even darkly humorous, revealing a man unsure if he’s losing her—or if he ever truly had her at all.

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Book-length poems

5.2.26: Poem Untitled 1 #38

This tracks a speaker moving through arguments, crowds, and private spaces without ever settling. It starts with being stuck, then drops into sharp exchanges—accusations and jokes. From there, it shifts rapidly: a kitchen under harsh light, late-night unease, memories of crying, then a turn toward the body—breathing, stress, a doctor visit. Desire, insult, and self-judgment keep interrupting each other, especially in the middle sections where relationships blur with power and control. The language becomes more restless near the end—talk of trials, treason, “inverse transform,” and slipping focus—before closing on something offered but not fully trusted. The pull of the poem is in how it keeps moving forward even as everything in it resists resolution.

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Book-length poems

5.1.26: Untitled 3 #42

     Oh my.  We’d really let loose and I have to tell you: I switched back to Ursula’s voice on the vowels and my voice on the consonants.  I think too much of the future (where people, in conjunction with the imperfect past, sometimes dump their backs without mercy) was getting in and wearing me down a little.  Everything was so raw right now—like I hadn’t slept, like I’d done a little speed—like I was trying to be Bob Dylan or something.  I’ve said some mean things about Bob in the past and I should say: well, now that I’ve recovered myself—the guy that also considers himself to be a folk singer—well, i realize there’s no reason for me to be threatened.  He may have been dumping his back like crazy when he was doing all that speed, but I did listen to his music for a time when I was lost; and, although I felt misled for a time—thinking i needed to learn how to play the guitar and follow in his footsteps at least a little—i now see that he was actually leaving a little trail of breadcrumbs that, once I sobered up, led right back to me.  A more complete version of myself—a more authentic version of myself than I’d been able to live with in the past.

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Novels in real time

5.1.26: Poem Untitled 1 #37

This piece captures a mind in motion—restless, searching, and unwilling to settle into a single truth. The voice moves between revelation and doubt, blending the sacred with the chemical, desire with restraint. Moments of clarity flicker, only to be questioned or undone. What makes it compelling is its immediacy. The speaker isn’t reflecting from a distance but speaking from within the experience itself. Everyday details—hallways, cafés, emails, late-night television—become charged, unstable, as if reality is shifting underfoot. There’s tension between control and surrender, between wanting grounding and chasing something transcendent. Humor cuts through the intensity, sharp and self-aware. At its core, the piece is driven by a need for connection—something real enough to anchor the chaos. That longing, more than anything, keeps the reader inside it.

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Book-length poems

4.30.26: Jazz: Strung out

“Strung Out” is a medium-tempo (♩=90) small-ensemble jazz work for flute, tenor saxophone, acoustic bass, and drum kit that develops through evolving texture and shifting instrumental roles rather than rigid sectional divisions . The opening presents a dense, collective texture with all instruments engaged, establishing a continuous rhythmic flow. The tenor saxophone then assumes a dominant role, intensifying the music through short, anxious rhythmic figures and increased dynamic weight. This energy recedes as the flute enters with a more relaxed, lyrical line, supported by a more active, higher-register bass. A more stable groove follows, with sax and flute interacting over steady bass and drums. The conclusion returns to the head, first clearly, then transformed: the sax becomes more forceful and rhythmically varied before gradually lengthening its phrases, bringing the piece to a controlled and coherent resolution.

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