What are you waiting for? Jump right in! Funny how she was waiting for me, especially when i’d neglected her so much—but maybe she’d needed some space. Was i needy, in the past? Have been before—having projected my net worth onto another person, thinking they were my salvation. You can’t help but smother something that’s eating up all your energy—taking what you are, and assuming, without merit, that they are every bit as good as you could be—if, that is, you had the nerve to break it off. “Sum it up,” i said, “all your contributions.” Don’t know exactly what i meant, or why i said it, which, in the past, had gotten me into trouble. Was I somehow being sarcastic, saying she should point out what she’d actually invested in this relationship? But we were already together in the life to come—so what was i complaining about but a lack of faith? But when you’re with the wrong person they take what wasn’t meant to be sarcastic and turn it into an opportunity to put you down, and i wasn’t with the wrong person, so i think, ultimately, what i mean, and what she understood, was that i was egging her on.
What would she say next? She’s here for me now. That was odd—who was she? Some other lover, or a just friend, perhaps? A child? All of that was possible—although I think, in 5D, it’s a little odd to give birth to a soul, since a soul, it seems, must live a 4D life. But maybe that wasn’t necessarily the case. Perhaps you could be born into a pure 5D life—how would that work? If you could procreate in heaven, there would soon be so many souls around that you’d have to choose favorites—and, also, an endless number of people would seemingly swamp the fifth dimension. But maybe the fifth dimension can’t be swamped—and there are as many coordinates as there are genetic possibilities. Would I be diminished by so many people? Maybe not. But who would my neighbors be if i had children eternally? Would they replace my 4D family? Somehow i didn’t think so. So, what? The only possibility was that some of them would wind up living further away—out of sight. Many of them, it seems, would end up outside of my sphere.
And what about the lesser mortals, that would lift themselves up by procreating all the time? But no, that wouldn’t happen in heaven. So it seemed that, if you had a child, then that child, as a function of the event—or the narrative—that we were going to, was called for. So having a child depended, in a way, on what everybody wanted, which might mean that somebody gets pregnant, and, also, it might mean that somebody doesn’t. It seems, in fact, that the lesser mortals, having enough on their plate already, wouldn’t have as many children as we might think. But sure, they could still have them, if a sole 5D life was possible. So i was back to my fundamental question—how would all these people fit, and what determined who our neighbors would be? Our neighbors were a function of our DNA, or our immediate family, and, possibly, those we spent a lot of time with—so we’d likely be surrounded by our parents first and foremost. So what gives? I might suppose, then, that some of my children would see me, as a function of their landscape, but I might not see all of them. I would only see the ones that were the most related to the direction i was going in. And what about our siblings? It seemed that we shared about 50% of our DNA with one parent, our siblings, and our children—so you could be surrounded by any of them—so that had to be factored into the mix.
But we also chose to live with a partner, and their DNA changed the landscape, so why couldn’t we choose to live next to someone that we weren’t related too? Indeed, it seemed that we could, if, at least, that person played a prominent role in our lives. But we only have so much time to spend with so many people—and why wouldn’t we want to live with those that share our genetic code? Unless someone somehow played a more prominent role in our lives? So we could live amongst people we weren’t related too, but they would have to factor into our lives more than certain family members, and that didn’t seem likely unless there was an ongoing sexual relationship, and, if there was, would you just see them or would you both see each other? It seemed to me that you’d be equally important and relevant to each other, so, indeed, you’d see each other. But what if, at some point in the human chain, you left your parents on earth, and moved to a different planet? Could you still see your parents? Would they still be on earth? It seemed that you could see them, and that, also, they would still be on earth—so the landscape, and the stars—would shift based on where you were relative to each other. But if you were there, on earth, and you could still see your home, as a neighbor, did your home somehow suddenly shift to earth? I don’t think so—I think you experienced the 5D field—that, if you were walking in the direction of your home, you’d enter a netherworld that was a combination of what you’d see on earth and on your planet—and that you’d arrive on your planet when the greater part of you was over halfway back to your home.
But what about a potential class difference between those that, once 4D souls, already lived forever in 5D, and those that were born purely in 5D? It seemed that the purity of living forever would balance out the purity of being born strictly in 5D—and never having to degrade yourself under 4D conditions. But purely 5D lives would eventually infinitely outweigh 4D souls, so what did that mean? We’d be rare, and, as such, elevated? Or, on the other hand, they’d see us as Neanderthals—less evolved than them? If the lesser mortals procreated less than others, then it seemed, in fact, that the human race, as a whole, would evolve—which, in my mind, kind of posed a heavenly problem, because I didn’t believe that, in heaven, anybody was necessarily worse than someone else. I believed that anybody could turn out to be something just as good, and just as powerful as somebody else, given the right motivation. That motivation was key—and you might be thinking—wouldn’t everybody want to become as good and great as possible? But the fact of the matter was that everybody was already happy in heaven, the goodness of 4D souls was already determined by their 4D suffering, and their lives, and 5D souls never had a cross to bear, so their motivation to do something that they might not automatically want to do had to come entirely from how much they looked up to someone else. Now, that, in and of itself, was a function of their inherent goodness, but this inherent goodness was not determined by 4D or 5D purity.
So what would it mean, then, if purely 5D lives almost infinitely outweighed 4D souls? That, if you divided the number of pure 5D lives on earth into the number of 4D souls that once lived on earth, that number would get increasingly close to zero, forever? It didn’t mean that 4D souls were better—since, in fact, every pure 5D life was the product of a 4D soul—but, it seemed that those we surrounded ourselves with were defined, in part, by the amount of time we spent with them, and, because 4D souls have been around forever, a 4D soul had a bond with another 4D soul that existed before the birth of a pure 5D life. Did it mean that there was, once, an amount of time stretching back to infinity, in which, we, as 4D souls, lived exclusively amongst each other? But one infinity is the same as the next infinity, so if this, for us, was infinity, then what did that mean? Did we, in a way, live in a realm that belonged to us and us alone?
Everybody could visit anybody—by thinking about them, over a period of time, until you were familiar with them, and, if you spent enough time with someone, they could become your spouse or a neighbor, but that that person, if they didn’t live with you, would become an addition to your property, or live further away, rather than replacing an immediate 4D family member, and their property. That person would still see, in the space around them, their particular family neighborhood—so if, for example, your grandfather was your neighbor, they would see their children as close as they might otherwise see them, and you would see each other relative to each other. So you might see their property differently than others do.
In this way, many 4D souls, surrounded, primarily, by their immediate family, every 4D soul lived in a village of 4D souls. This rarity, along with eternal goodness and experience, gives 4D souls a mystical appeal, and yet, when we consider that, on average, only the best of us produce 5D children, the genes, if not the inherent goodness of those children, balances the experience of our 4D counterparts, and, as such, the two life forms, as a whole, become equally meaningful both to themselves and others. The crucial point is that 4D souls already made it into heaven—they already proved themselves, and there is no possibility that, at some point, they might cease to exist. Pure 5D lives, on the other hand, can express the bad in us, a bad that, at some point, might drive them out of existence. So 5D lives, although they might prove more talented than many 4D souls, nevertheless are not proven, overall, to be good, ever. There is always the possibility that they were born bad, and that badness will take shape, even if they are nothing but happy and do nothing to make others unhappy—and, they could, in effect, pass away.