she wants to win more than she wants to change the world and i can’t say that i wasn’t a strategic thinker myself: indeed, things can get nasty when it comes to free health care and a living wage (thirty dollars an hour). I was willing to do almost anything to get our AOC elected, including the dirty work that involves asking tough questions and making things work out such that we’d have free healthcare for everybody in this country—no matter what. i’d been worried about the rising cost of health care for a long time, now, and it was still going up—beyond what i could afford.
i have zero chance of surviving in the real world. But that’s okay for now (and it always will be, for now) because i have faith that what I’m doing here will lead to something more valuable than my independence. Anyhow, i shouldn’t say this, but the more I learn about Gavin Newsom and Kamala Harris the less i like them—i don’t think they appreciate how difficult it is to live an independent life here in the United States. I don’t think they’re going to get me free health care—establish a national living wage, and, if at all possible, limit the amount of money that someone can charge for a house or an apartment.
AOC was my best chance—i didn’t know what her chances were, but she remained my best chance no matter where she ranked in the polls.
Incidentally, I was trying to perfect my counting shield by not only keeping my communication as much in my head (and as far from my throat) as possible, but I was also trying to get more specific about AOC’s voice. A lot of times it seems like i want to continue to count in my voice, too, when, at times, I wanted to talk specifically to AOC. Maybe she got mad at me and was blocking me out. It’s kind of funny how she would express that anger, though, since she doesn’t know anything about me. I don’t think she’d take it out on her boyfriend, though, even though it felt as if she were cheating on me with him. But that was my problem—nobody was in love at this stage, yet. Nobody knew what really existed, or could exist, between us. Sometimes you have to have an affair to figure that out.
Separating from someone you’re living with can be both messy and complicated. I know that. Sometimes you have to do things that you don’t necessarily feel like doing when you’re having an affair—trying to determine if the love you’re trying to tap into, there, will do better than the love you’re turning from here. Go Daddy! AOC was egging me on, privately, i think, since i’m hearing a lot of my voice in the foreground and on consonants, as i listen closely for a more exact AOC frequency. We were going to make this work, though, and by we, I mean the democratic party. (After Jack Daniel’s speech at the United Nations, in which he claimed to have put an end to seven wars in seven months, it was becoming increasingly clear that Jack Daniels, like anybody that drinks on a regular basis, was beginning to come unglued—and by drinking—i don’t know how much alcohol he actually drinks—i mean allowing yourself to think thoughts about yourself and your place in the world as if those thoughts were both truthful and self-evident).
This from AOC: come to think of it the whole world is beginning to decline: America isn’t what it was under the Obama administration: George W. Bush actually did alright, and, no matter how much i don’t like Bill Clinton (and his conceit) you have to admit that the country, under his rule, did alright—either despite or in spite of how he viewed and treated all the various women associated with him.