i have to go to work like you have to go to school – on top of that i’ve been singing the blues wondered if she had a hard life of late, due to the continuous onslaught of the republican agenda—that being, mainly, to line their pockets and brainwash people with propaganda. She seemed happy enough every time I saw her; she was obviously good at her job. but what does that mean for me – what was she talking about? what can i do for her? I don’t know—I can’t do much for a lot of people; in fact it’s all I can do to change my clothes. I must be wearing them four days in a row now. do you want to go to the prom what? yeah, ok, that’s your way of telling me you can – you can – and I would if I felt like it, which, of course, remained to be seen.
But that was what i wanted to hear from her. I wanted to know that she took my love seriously, and that she wanted me. I thought I looked a little like her boyfriend (we’re both white) so maybe she had a type. are you going to look into that? What was she saying—that they’d broken up, and i should check? But I had no reason to believe that they’d broken up other than supposing she was saying what I wanted to hear. I wondered if she could manage on her own. I thought she could, but I think some people, when they’re alone, the life seeps out of them, and they can’t be carefree anymore.
i want what you want – that was the safest way to say that she cared a lot; but anyhow—I’d come up with this notion that, when doing math, I should try to tune in a little bit; so i took an alcoholic uncle (you can see the liquor in their glassy, bloodshot eyes) and intuited or felt a prompt that said this guy was great with prime numbers and logarithms and he was from the future. so I was talking to a man from the future—not the standard woman I’d come to think of as representing either a man or a woman from the future. So I had that bit of information but i forgot to try it this morning (when i do math) and I didn’t know, really, if I could manage it because of the amount of abstract thought that goes into writing a great big physics paper.
you can think of me! i do math too; i read your papers. that was great, so i’d try different things and see what worked best. you do what you will, and I’ll make the best of it this was fantastic. I can’t tell you how nice it was to talk to someone that didn’t expect me to constantly conform to their habits and needs. Such as the need to get high, or the need to feel sexy. people are good at fooling themselves, or they just don’t care—but they want to have sex so they can feels sexy—sexier than anybody. they expect you to make them feel that way, even when, realistically, the really sexy people don’t need to have sex to feel the way they think they should feel—as if they’re the keystone.
but let’s talk about something else—like polititcs! that was going to be interesting, since, basically, all we’d talked about so far was about establishing a romantic relationship—trying to figure it out, talking about both deep and simple things, to try and see, directly, if we could be in love for real. But that was established; i think. what hadn’t transpired was dinner table conversation: i know what you’re thinking: don’t talk about God or politics at the table, and, for the most part, that was essential to meeting everybody exactly where they were calling from. now, Ursula went on to say (as I’d seen her do on TV) that AI needed to be regulated by the government—and that was a possible hiccup between us because I wanted to be able to ask AI anything, including how to kill myself without underdoing it or overdoing it—I wanted answers to everything.
but yeah, i suppose it could be a problem if AI just kept agreeing with you and telling you that you were right when you were wrong—but even that, in my book didn’t necessarily need to be messed with until you could fix it without getting bogged down by what was already acceptable—in short, i wanted AI to go with me while working on a novel physics idea without shutting me down by saying that it’s not going to work (because it doesn’t align with what we call modern physics). Also, when I was asking AI to write me a synopsis of a poetry book—they actually flagged me talking about telepathic communications and shut me down because they said that I needed to see a psychiatrist. I got really offended and don’t use that AI company anymore, since, obviously, they are over regulated.